Last week I had the fortune of spending a couple of days in Ibiza. This was technically a working holiday, but I had some time off to do my own thing and explore the island.
On the plane journey out to Ibiza I was reading ‘Life Tonic’ by Jody Shield, a fellow author of my publisher Yellow Kite. I had been sent Jody’s book from my publisher, but to be completely honest with you, I knew very little about her and what she was about. I always have a stack of books to read, but for some reason I felt compelled to take her book with me. In the opening chapter of her book there is a quote which reads:
Books have a tendency to appear in your life when you’re looking for answers
I read this and a shiver ran down my spine. I messaged Jody to say “I think I was meant to read your book”.
Reading her book I learnt about meditation, spirituality, and tuning into the ‘real’ me.
Whilst out in Ibiza I connected with a Richie, a yoga instructor from London under the name of @thestrengthtemple. He had messaged me on Instagram to say he was out in Ibiza at the same time and offered to show my friend and I around some hidden spots on the island. We road tripped north up the island to heaven’s gate and climbed up to the highest point of the cliff overlooking the ocean.
When we got to the top, Richie suggested taking us through a guided meditation.
Instantly I felt resistance inside of me. I’ve never been very good at mediating. I feel anxiety, not peace, when I sit still. As a woman who is always short on time, I do not have time to waste sitting doing nothing for 20 minutes.
However, my mind wandered back to Jody’s book and a little voice inside me told me that this time it would be different.
So we sat down cross legged on the top of the cliff and closed our eyes. Richie guided us through, making us aware of what was happening in the present moment; the sound of the waves crashing on the rocks and the birds chirping in the distance, the warmth of the sun beaming down upon us, and the feeling of cool sea breeze on our skin. My thoughts became quiet and my mind focused solely on what was happening then and there.
We sat there in silence for 30 minutes and when our attention naturally broke and I opened my eyes, I realised I had tears rolling down my cheeks. I felt very confused, where did this come from? Was I sad? Was I happy?
On reflection, what I was experiencing was an overwhelming feeling of gratitude.
I have had an incredible year. I’ve just released my first book which shot to number one bestseller on the Amazon book chart on the day of publication. I’m coming to the end of my first year as a doctor, I’ve passed my ARCP, and soon to gain my full registration with the GMC. I’ve moved to London and I’ve just started renting my first home on my own. I’m surrounded by incredible family and friends who celebrate my wins and offer me support when I need it.
This is my sign. I don’t know if it came from a higher place but my gut tells me that these series of events did not happen by chance.
I’m making a promise to myself to reconnect with the ‘real’ me. I’ve decided to incorporate daily meditation into my morning routine to help keep me grounded and focused. I accept it won’t be easy to begin with and there will be times where I will try to avoid doing it to save time, but I’m going to give this everything i’ve got because I deserve it.
I want to invite you to join me on doing this. Can you give 10-20 minutes every morning to peaceful meditation? Let’s do this together.